My thoughts after goal
It feels odd not losing weight anymore. It's been such a big part of the last six months for me. The weekly weigh in and the slow journey towards my destination... Since I've actually reached my goal it's strange, I've really had to change my aspirations and I'm thinking "what do I do now, what is it I'm looking forward to." I still really enjoy people stopping me in the street and telling me how well I've done and how good I look. People are still amazed and I guess that satisfies my ego.
To be absolutely honest I need to find some new goals. I did a fun run with my trainer Natalie and managed to run 5km in 28mins, which I've never done before, I'm just not a runner. So that was an achievement! Now I just need different goals, and I think they're more health and fitness oriented goals. I want to try to make my body look a bit better. I may have lost the weight but now I want to shape it. I want it to look a lot better without any clothes on and I just want to be able to do more things with it. So I want to be able to run 10kms now instead of 5kms. It's not like it's become an obsession, but it's like a sense of regret the weight loss journey is finished. It's a different headspace now. I think that's why it's really good to still be working with my consultant Adele because she's made me aware that these feelings are actually quite normal. It's not exactly an anti climax, but this is where a lot of the real work begins, in the stabilising of my metabolism and to make sure I don't just put all the weight back on. Basically my body needs to start accepting that this is my natural weight and that I don't have to go back up. Ever!
My eating habits have remained constant. I haven't gone back to my old ways, I haven't succumbed to those naughty treats I used to fall foul to. No more chip sandwiches, I rarely even look at chips these days. That used to be a real stop for me down the supermarket aisle. I just keep walking these days, I don't bother with the cashews or crisps or nachos. I just keep walking and spend far more time in the fruit barn these days than I do in the supermarket biscuit aisle! :-)
Cheers,
Dicko
